Voodoo Alien played a gig! We returned to The 3B's to be greeted by the same weird MC as before. (I'm sure people just humour him.) We had a fun time despite me completely müllering-up a few times. I'm not so proffessional (duh!) so take quite a lot of cues for banging from the wailing and twanging. I'll learn to keep the pace one day...
Rock & roll, dude, rock & roll.
In other news, I'm not entirely certiain that I'm cut out for life. There's an incredible strive for material gain going on in this world and it is all too often used as a measure of success. I was in a bar in London the other night (a loud, expensive & rather surreal place to be) and surrounded by supposedly 'successful' people, but the chap I was talking to could only talk about his work. It was his purpose, goal & life. He was obviously well-paid & well-off so a success.
I often wonder about being successful, but I can't really see it happening to me. I don't think I have that drive to go after the well-paid job and make a career for myself. Ever since studying for A-levels (or even before, but sixth-form was where it counted) I've been content to just drift along and take whatever results and opportunities come my way but without actively and effortfully seeking them out. I'm not really sure if I was lazy (shut it, you) or just couldn't really see the point. The lyric "money can't buy me love" struck me early on.
It's easy to claim I'm living for some higher purpose, but I'm not really, just a different purpose. A spirtiual one? Not really sure about that, plenty of debate has gone on in my head on that subject and I have irreconcilable problems with it.
I can, of course, see the sense in getting a decent job to fund housecarholidayskidspensionetc but I just don't see the point: is that all there really is to life? It's what millions of people strive for so there must be some sense in it, but I'm not striving for it so can I ever be successful?
So what is to be done? Am I not cut out for life? I have to do something with my life, and I shall. As touched upon, I can't really see myself working to inflate the bank account of Mr. Inc. PLC Co. so I guess I'll try a few jobs until I find one I'm content in and move on if it stops suiting me or I it. I'll get by and live my life in pursuit of bettering myself and the world around me. I'll consider myself successful in life if I can cause as little harm as possible to Earth (or even improve its state: go go go cycling and not eating meat!), be thoughtful to other people and generally be a nice person to all those around me..
Key point to self: stop worrying about it all, it'll be fine.
